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Friday, January 16th, 2009
8:24 pm
Cold as a...
witches tit! Isn't that how it goes?


I hate winter sooooo much. Can anyone reccomend a nice place to live where it's warm all the time and the cost of living is reasonable? I have to get out of Cleveland. I don't want to spend another winter here.
8:24 pm
Cold as a...
witches tit! Isn't that how it goes?


I hate winter sooooo much. Can anyone reccomend a nice place to live where it's warm all the time and the cost of living is reasonable? I have to get out of Cleveland. I don't want to spend another winter here.
Tuesday, January 13th, 2009
10:33 pm
Things that sucked in the past week...

Food poisoning - It's like getting beat up FOR REAL! I'm still sore from puking.

This fucking snow. Have I said I hate winter...I HATE WINTER!!

Being unemployed. It sucks when your employer doesn't have a heart and fires you a week before Christmas. Maybe that's what I get for working for a bitchy queen

Things that DIDN'T suck this past week...

Finally decorating the Christmas tree with Herb. Yeah, yeah before you flame me for waiting this long just remember that Jesus was not born on December 25th or even in December for that reason so Christmas is when it happens as far as I'm concerned. Anyway after all the work herbe did to hang the lights it's all gonna stay up awhile Bitches!

Getting a gig when I really needed the money!

Connecting on an emotional level with my uncle who really hasn't had much to do with me thus far in life.

Current Mood: calm
Wednesday, December 31st, 2008
5:11 pm
The year's end,
what I'm thankful for and what I'd like to change for 2009...

I'm thankful for...

- life and living in general, I'm getting older and my appreciation for waking up each day gets stronger the older I get
- demonstrations of love from people I care about and my ability to love back equally if not more. It's such a great feeling!
- being able to love someone unconditionally
- for my parents who are no longer on this earth, they taught me so many things that when I was young I thought would never matter...Well they DO and I'm grateful to them for guiding me in the right direction while I was growing up.
- microfiber blankets! OMG They're so soft it's like touching air. And it's a great thing to have fun on naked with someone. hehe
- music...for without it my life would be empty and boring. People who turn me on to new artists and styles of music are like gold to me. I'm always down for something new!
- being able to share my life with someone I love very much for however long it lasts. I try to enjoy each day with him and tell him how much I love and appreciate him because you never know what could happen. Say "I love you." to someone you care about today and let them know how much they mean to you.
- a drama free life because I choose not to get caught up in the "gay" condition. I AM UNIQUE.
- Lindemans fruit lambic because it tastes soooooo good.

Some things I'd like to change for the new year...

- where I live. I need to get out of Cleveland and this is the year it's going to happen. I'm thinking about moving to Arizona or North Carolina. Some place where the winters are not cold and harsh like they are here. I've had enough of that.
- learn to deal with my feelings better. (something ALL of us should strive for) I have recently stopped communication with my best friend of 20 years because of his drug addiction and have realized that I am having a hard time with that. I went to my first Al-Anon meeting and think I'll try this for awhile because I think it will help me to deal with him and also deal with myself because I can be really hard on myself alot of the time. I need some new skills ya know what I mean? :o)
- make an effort to go back to school and learn something new. I have always had the skills to make it through life and enjoy the work I was doing but I want to learn something new and change my career this year. I am thinking about IT or something in the medical field.
-be more comfortable with me. I'm pretty happy with who and what I am and I do love myself but I think I need to learn how to make mySELF happy more instead of looking for happiness from others or doing things FOR others just to make me happy. I'm not a selfish person but sometimes I think more of the other person than I do of myself and that needs to stop.
- realize that there are tons of new friends out there to be had and make an effort to find them. My circle of friends has been depleted quite a bit since I decided to eliminate all of my friends who are heavy drug users. I feel alone sometimes because most of these friends I've had for 15 to 20 years give or take a few. They're not bad people they just have addictions that I can't be a part of anymore.
- make a conscious effort to watch what I'm eating at what times and how much. I'm happy with being a big guy but I need to make some changes in my eating habits because I realized I feel better when I eat healthier. More energy, less tired, you know.

So yeah, rather than use the word "resolution" I just prefer to list things that I want to change. Regardless if I do everything on this list or not at least I acknowledged it and that is the first process in making changes. I have an amazing guy in my life right beside me who supports me in whatever I do so making the effort to do these things may be just a little easier with him around. Thanks for being here with me herbe.

I'd really like to hear from some of you who read this and hear about the things you've been thankful for this past year and something you'd like to change in the next year.

New Years hugs 4 all!
Saturday, July 5th, 2008
12:09 am
What They Don't Wanna Know....

George Rostov's blog has once again pitched its tent upon Hampsted Heath and is now open for business - at a special discounted rate for octagenarian transexuals. 

Consider his blog an experiment....to see how far one man can confront the blackness sheltering in his mind....to watch one fragile, deluded man drive himself to the edge of the abyss...to listen to one drug-addled ex-rentboy scream in anger at everything and everyone....to be disgusted at one cross-dressing alcoholic's self-destructive journey into a twilight world of gay saunas, cruising grounds, toilets, sex cinemas, and an addict's hell of cold turkey.

Consider his blog an aberration....of everything that is decent turning to depravity, of virtue raped and debased, of sanity, love and compassion sacrificed in Rostov's mission to replace God with rage, violence and his own philosophy of murder and vice. 

Rimbaud -

De Sade -

Burroughs -

They only went so far....Rostov is going all the way.

This is the pathology of hate.

Saturday, March 24th, 2007
3:28 pm
This is my tattoo:

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I want it gone. I hate it.
I want a skull there.
Here is the challenge.

Use my diagram and picture and try to turn it into a skull. Whoever does the best job can go with me to get it done and I will put 50 bux towards you getting a tattoo.

If you are not in my area....maybe I can mail you something cool and fun.

Im really wanting to cover this up soon.
Tuesday, February 6th, 2007
11:23 am
Saturday, November 25th, 2006
4:39 pm
Tuesday, November 14th, 2006
10:24 pm
More Photos thanks to my favorite Photographer: Ryan Roman


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Wednesday, August 23rd, 2006
9:47 pm
With the moderators permission, I would like to post this since I need some opinions. This is no way pertains to the bear/cub/chub/chaser community. This is a question (and half-assed promo) about my music myspace profile. I am just getting started and I need some feedback. I would appreciate it if you all take the time to help me out with this. Also, if any of you like my music (acoustic/pop/rock) than feel free to add me. Thanks :)

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Thursday, August 17th, 2006
10:59 am
Thursday, August 10th, 2006
2:53 pm
Tuesday, August 8th, 2006
3:02 pm
Underwear Chub

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Thursday, July 20th, 2006
2:16 pm
Pictures of me as Brad from Rocky Horror, I only played him once b4, and posted pictures. Lots of dudes enjoyed those photos, seeing as Im in my underwear alot, so I thought Id post the newer ones.

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Monday, June 19th, 2006
11:42 am
My New Nude Photo set.....games with a wall, and a toy.

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Friday, June 2nd, 2006
1:15 pm
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Sunday, May 28th, 2006
7:58 pm
Wednesday, May 17th, 2006
11:46 am
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Thursday, April 13th, 2006
11:27 am

We had a Diva Off. All guys in drag impersonating their favorite famous Diva. I was one of the winners!
I was Liza Minelli. No I didnt shave, but I still looked Hot.

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Wednesday, March 22nd, 2006
9:25 am
A few questions:

Is there such thing as a Strip Club for Bears/Cubs? Or an establishment where they hire bears/cubs to dance for money?

How long should you wear a cock ring? Can I wear it all nite to the club and for fun after? Or should I put it on later?


A picture of my Ass for your opinion:

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